LIFE.

Time flies. I wish things could slow down. I want to freeze frame certain portions of my life (or all of my current life) so that I can enjoy them as everlasting moments. Amelia is getting so big and sometimes when I stare at her beautiful face, fear comes over me. I don't want her to get big..I just want her to stay little, laying in my lap, sleeping peacefully for as long as possible. Why is life so quick to pass? Why have I, in this short life, been so willing to allow the days to cycle through as if I'm going to live forever? With as much as I would love to live life without an ending, I've come to realize that in my belief of life, I only live once..time is so very precious. I have to take each day and grab it with all I've got..enjoying every moment because they do pass so quickly. I want to feel life instead of just living it. I have so much I want to accomplish but those dreams just sit on a high, yet reachable shelf..collecting dust. It's time for me to live!

To start, I've always wanted to, and will be the best mother and wife I can possibly be. That is high priority for me, though being happy myself, is just as important, those two very wonderful people in my life make me VERY happy. I owe them nothing less than a happy me. Other things that make me happy which will contribute to my very full, well lived life are things such as painting, writing, reading, learning... things like to play the guitar, piano & history..and to be ultimately good at all of these things...at least a little bit, if only to myself. I could be happy with that. I want to be debt free for most of my adult life, I want to travel, I want to start embracing my relationships with people. I want to be a better friend. AND as you most know by now, I want to live life healthy and strong. All of these things are goals and things I mean to work on..and I shall. This is the time.